Techeek

A beginning in the end …
All my life I was there to subtend … to defend … to pretend …
Whispering the secrets of my life …
I lead it hanging on the staunch beliefs …
Strange! I never knew what was I …
Stranger!! When I found out that it was not me …
All I have is single faith that I will be me …
A single flame that makes … me …

Swinging all day with my pals …
I forgot I have to answer my calls …
Sharing my tears, my fears …
I forgot I have a million fears … a million unfold … a million unsaid …

I live all alone deep down …
What makes you wait so long …
Conquer the worlds of eternity … being with me, myself and I

“But what for are you…”

“Just do what I say” again a hard tone on my brother.

He closed the door and left. Half an hour later my mom came to my room with a plate of food. This time I did not refuse for the second time, I started having dinner. You forget your fights and anger when you are hungry, the same was with me also. The only reason I was sad was for, why did not my dad come to ask me about my dinner. I did not worry about this too much as it was not for the first time.

Ramesh, my dad, runs a middle class family working at a shoe factory. I do not know his earnings, but he has very well managed to fulfill the whole family’s needs. He is bad only when it comes to me and I do not know why. My mom, Sharadha, who has completed her SSLC, a housewife, knows only to cook well. She is not a book worm, but has a good general knowledge. Bharath, my 14 year old younger brother, is very good at studies and is very fond to my parents. He helps my parents in every way. I, other than good looking, am nothing more for my family.

I got ready after applying deodorant few more times. I was dressed at the best for my first day at college. Yes, it is a surprise but a fact. I somehow managed to clear my high school in second class and entered my Pre-University college level. I was too happy. College is very similar as schools for those who think education is everything, but for a guy like me, it’s a gate pass out of jail. I was on cloud nine at that moment.

“Why is it that you always compare me with him? He might be good at studies and me in some other field. Never criticize anybody, I just hate it. I know very well that you are very much fond of Bharath than me. You always hate me for the reason that I do not study well” with tears in my eyes and anger on my face I left the place very soon.

I should not have said those words, but I could not help myself other way. I had these things in my mind from long. I walked straight outside my home while my dad stood keeping his head bent. Silence from others proves that you are right and other is on the wrong side. I felt I was right.

“Sharath, come for dinner. Mom is calling” my brother’s voice. I was a bit angry on him as he was the cause for all my fights between me and my parents. I have heard his friends and my relatives saying that he is a good son to my parents. This always made me an outsider from my family sometimes.

“I won’t come. You go and have” I replied harshly.

The only lives on earth who love you even at your worst situation are your parents, and only your parents. Do you love them as much as they do? Find out some duties of a child, to be fulfilled, for a happy family.

15 years ago…

“Dad, here is my report card. I have again scored a very less marks, as usual. I had done my level best, but still could not score well. I am sorry” I said in a low voice accepting my mistake.

He had a look at the report card, and the next second it was on my face.

“What do you do at school? What reason you attend extra tuitions? Why do you not score well like other students, or at least like your brother, Bharath? He is second highest in his class. Do learn something from him at least”

I get irritated if somebody compares me with someone else, especially when my dad does this with my brother. I do not like it.

Why is it so difficult to admit that you were at fault?

Why is it so difficult to say “I’m sorry, I was wrong”

Why is it so difficult to own up to an error?

Why is it so difficult to make a relationship better?

Why is it so difficult to move out of the shade?

Why is it so difficult to curb a desire that gumption forbade?

Why is it so difficult to come together after falling apart?

Why is it so difficult to blank out a face in the dark?

Why is it so difficult to close down an overworked mind?

Why is it so difficult to leave a past behind?

Why is it so difficult to not hurt someone?

Why is it so difficult to care for them in return?

Why is it so difficult to pave our own destiny?

Why is it so difficult to place our decisions under scrutiny?

Why is it so difficult to stand up to iniquity?

Why is it so difficult to salvage lost dignity?

Every time I rise, I am chastened

Every time I waver, I am broken

Every time I smile, I am punished

Every time I speak, I am snubbed

I picked up the shards of what once belonged to me

Among them, my heart, my dreams and my verity

I got off the borrowed ride, threw away my shackles and cut myself free

Unfurled my sails, set my sights and embarked on a voyage to a distant sea

Reason for my pride,
Reason for my delight,
Reason for my glee,
Source for my joy,
Cause for my bliss,
Basis for my life,
Reason for me to live !!
But darling,
I am void of reason
To love you
Still my love for you
Is Endless and everlasting
Continual and eternal
for it will never die away
It will be forever
Till our end
For you are the reason
for me to live
for you are
Basis for my life!!

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